Do you ever feel?

Hey,Laads! it's been one month ago, i was recently write in this blog. And belated Happy New Year for you all! yeaa! yipyip! How was your new year night? One hour before the year change 2013, I'm in the blanket, dreaming, and sleeping. Yeah! This is my new year night! I don't watch the firework, blow the trumpet, or go to somewhere in the crowded place, and eat BBQ, or something. Yeahaha! You think that i'm the one who regret spending the new year whole night with nothing to do, just sleep. No, actually not. I think year by year there's nothing change, I feel it. Do you ever think about, your new year resolutions? Do you? Is your resolutions are achieved? I have nothing. My resolutions just simple like this "mudah-mudahan aku masuk sepuluh besar.amin" but not as simple as that,I know. I just get hurt every single year. And the whole 2012 year is so rudicolous to me. Hurt by "someone" and reparated by "someone" unexpected.

Now, I don't want to hoping something that I can't start and I can't Achieved. It hurt for sure. But I were become to the optimical person who can more act, talk less. It's better to be a silent person than a talkative person who can do nothing. My national examination is near about 5cm from my brain. They're distrub me everytime i want to dream, and they're always remind me too. 

This is the time, the most struggle year. Maybe I can change sometime, after I re-reading this post in January 5th 2014. and make my self thinking, that I was change this far, in 2012, I teach to be a strong woman, I don't want to hurt by another (ugly stupidity) man again. In 2012 i study to react someone by their attitude to me. In 2012, I learn to be a better sister,daughter,and friends to the people I love the most. 

I don't have a resolution for 2013 this far, but I think, make my self happy is the one that I have to make A better me.